i wish to be held by a river please

i wish to be held by a river please drowning
is something i do at night waking choked
only reminds me that air is precious i wish
to be empty a river knows the void carves it
day on glimmering day months later her path
has changed i wish for rounded stones my edges
are raw and sharp i wish for a dream woven
of reeds with which to sail the rivers please
i wish to remember this wish when i am floating
in confusing seas i wish to come safe to land
then leave